Scream Of Memories

Startled, I woke up in midnight,
Deep inside, felt something was not right.
I could not start from the lay,
Though the sound was not so far away.

Little by little, I kept my pace,
And I sat there, sweating, at my space.
Was it a dream? I wondered,
As I felt nothing, that rendered.

Slowly, my legs took me to my desk,
There lied, the words I marked last dusk.
“Laying at the land of buried dream,
thought, I heard the memories scream!!"

Gently, I ran my fingers over the words,
And felt a chill of returning thoughts.
Wondered, if I ever forget the times of yore,
Soon in my mind, did the yesterdays restore.

I tried to pass those memories aside,
And trod back to bed, ‘coz I couldn't abide.
Every day, since then, I woke up grizzled
For I hear the scream of memories, sizzled...

Fragmentary Notes!!!

Revulsion...
I stood there between trees,
who bowing their head in breeze.
I looked at the west, a burning in my heart did rise,
And don’t know how long, I stood there in place.
Night creeps in, sees the sun sets in my eyes,
my heartbeats, seems taking its pace.
Did I? Hate this moonlit night; though,
it was not so, a few days ago.

Treasured…
'Twas just yesterday or so,
And not being alone though.
At the loose end of my hand,
holding a hand in tact.
I was not only holding you,
but was also a promise though.
Never did the night creeps in my eyes,
did only your love melts in my lives.

Altered…
You used to say many "No's",
I failed to tie any knots.
I wondered when you was rude,
and should have known it was prelude.
I realized your change,
but was not in my range.
Thus once you told me a ‘SO’,
and it was all of it though.

Proved…
As I moved to my right,
There stood you, dimmed, in moonlight.
Mysteries, Ah! Comes in one’s life,
I saw regret in your eyes.
And a sorry lied in your lips,
“I never meant to hurt your feelings"
A smile curved my lips, “though; one cant refutes,
that my tune, is out of thy notes…" 

a torn piece from the scorned reminiscence...

A Saturday Of September 2009 

Today she called me...

I told her, "I couldn't wear the veil anymore..

I couldn't control my feelings anymore...

All i want is to forget you...

All the memories... to get rid of it..."

I broke off....

She remained silent for a few minutes...

She said...." I wont reach you again, 

so it'll be easy for you right? "

Easy? Sounds easy!!

I failed for words... coz they got gone....

but deep inside me, I could feel, its burning...

I love her...

I love her more than any damn precious thing i value...

I love her with the whole of my life...

Now sitting alone, with only the thoughts to accompany me,

I am in search of bliss, which got lost in solitude...long ago...

still searching.......................